jangan gundah di kala gusar

dalam banyak banyak banyak, banyak mana paling sikit?

hahaha..riddle yang bangang dari didi. teman serumah ku.

lama tak post entry.
sibuk la.
banyak sangat ke kerja.
kalau la sehari ada 40 jam.
atau sehari ada dua hari.
dalam peluang ada peluang kedua.
dalam amaran terakhir ada amaran terakhir pertama.
andai senang berkata, aku ingin masa lampau ku.
mana aku habiskan semua masa ku.
tidur.
melepak.
bersosial.
tu semua kan separuh dari hidup kita.
tapi mana lagi separuh.

hidup indah. hidup mudah!
nikmati zaman muda. makan puding!!

i've change my url to gilalensa.blogspot.com.

nothing to talk about. just stressed out. god damn i hate my self now. jess!!

we are more interested in making others believe we are happy than in trying to be happy ourselves

i mean nothing with the headline. just something that i thought.
how to describe a really happy man?

i find a quote that seems to be more likely exact to the question.

"the really happy man never laughs - seldom - though he may smile. he does not need to laugh, for laughter, like weeping is a relief of mental tension"

bunga im sorry. i didn't mean it. i have nothing to do with the word "closeness". i just love u.

i don't understand how to react

*sigh*

are we all stalker

being a silent reader is quite good i guess.
but dealing with anonymous, u tell me the crap feeling.

for me. im not into reading very much actually. i just love the pictures. but still, i do read u all folk punyer blog. so read and read. just keep ur distance with the monitor screen. nanti rabun dah susah nak baca dah!

bunga..saya mintak maaf

i don't know if i continue, even today, always liking myself.
but what i learned to do now is to forgive myself.
it is very important for every human being to forgive herself or himself because if you live,
you will make mistakes. it is inevitable.
but once you do and you see the mistake,
then you forgive yourself and say,
"well, if i would known better i would have done better" that's all.
so you say to people who you think you may have injured,
"i'm sorry" and then you say to yourself,
"i'm sorry"
if we all hold on to the mistake,
we can't see our own glory in the mirror because we have the mistake between our faces and the mirror
we can't see what we're capable of being.
you can ask forgiveness of others,
but in the end the real forgiveness is in one's own self.
i think that young men and women are so caught by the way they see themselves.

as for bunga. i'm sorry for the way i act recently. i know i'm kind of being different.
i admit that i'm wrong. saya sangat cintakan awak. cinta tak marah bunga dah lepas ni.


p/s : angah dah sampai belum??

ada gaya gay ke?

"hai..nak tak kalau awak jadi adik angkat saya. kalau nak saya boleh support hidup awak. cakap jer nak apa saya boleh kasi"

"ok la macam ni. kita buat stakat ringan-ringan je. boleh dik?"

"kalau abg bagi adik 5 ribu sebulan nak?"

"kita melancap nak dik?"

what the FUCK!!

kalau ko bagi aku speedlight 3 bijik pun sumpah haram aku tak nak laga batu dengan ko la.
lagi rela dengan nenek tua la. janji dia perempuan. yang aku ada selera dengan ko belalai.
ko pergi la cari lelaki lain. ko bisex ke tak straight ker..aku yang peduli. ape ko ingat senang-senang nak kulum batang aku. get a life la dude.

aku pun dah tak paham dengan manusia sekarang. punya la aku rasa aku bernafsu kalau tengok perempuan. ada jugak yang bernafsu tengok lelaki. wtf! ape la sangat yang korunk dapat kalau belalai dengan belalai. ada ke lelaki yang baca blog aku nie sama perangai dengan orunk yang berayat macam kat atas tu. kalau ada, dah-dah. ko tak payah la baca blog ni lagi. baca blog orunk lain erh. pergi main jauh-jauh.

bagi aku la. aku admit. aku tengok porn. jap-jap.
ada ker lelaki yang tak tengok porn?
tak pernah tahu pun yang wanita ni ada boobies?
yang tak pernah tahu eraksi?

mustahil la. dari awal aku kenal boobies. tak pernah aku jumpa member-member aku yang tak pernah tahu boobies tu aper. dah memang adat kaum lelaki macam tu. setuju dengan aku?
kalau ada yang nak pertikai, silalah. nak jugak aku tahu apa pandangan orunk lain. out of 10000 maybe ada la 2-3 orunk yang nerd tahap dewa. pakai spec tebal sama tebal dengan bullet proof mirror. yang kerja dorunk...herm..kalau kerja dorunk maen game jer. sekarang banyak jer game yang ada karekter anime yang hot. nak cakap membaca jer. gile ko, newspaper pun ada bahagian hiburan. hehehe. susah nak dibendung. tapi my point is, ok la tu. at least lelaki ke arah wanita jugak. tapi asal ada kes nak sama-sama belalai.

ko bayar la aku 10 ribu seminit pun, tak nak nye aku lobang bontot ko tu. kalau ada sape-sape nak, contact la no. ni (0176365197, 0142562188, 0173294122). mana la tau ada umat yang suke bontot lelaki.

p/s : lesbo aku leyh terima jer. sebab dorunk perempuan. hahaha..

ironiknya bersarung tetek.

hye there.

im back again. with boring entries like before. like it read it. feeling piss and lame, so piss off.
this blog had nothing to do with the real me. maybe a little but not everything. i warn u, if u don't like it just simply
don't read.
my bunga went home already. off to terengganu for a few days due to her early preparation. i wish i would be more like her.
really aggressive when doing her job. bunga..ur my idol! =)

as for my weekend. start it a bit late. woke up at 2. me, haq and anip planning on going to pikom pc fair held at convention center, klcc. so off we go.

aku jumpa maira. anip jumpa member-member myspace dia. maira jumpa member-member myspace dia juga. kami jejaka jumpa member-member myspace
mereka. angkat tangan, salam-salam, pastu jalan-jalan bersama!
lepas jumpa semua member-member yang tak kenal. jumpa anas pulak(housemate aku dan haq) yang lencun kuyup meredah hujan dari bangi hingga ke klcc demi pc fair. anas membawa pulang sebiji external hardisk. yang lain
hanya membawa kertas yang agak tebal (pamphlet-pamphlet). aku ikot mereka-mereka bukan niat membeli, tapi menembak. aku nak snap picture je sebenarnya. hehehe.
so have fun looking. ada yang best tapi aku tak upload. connection macam dial up zaman batu. WTF!

p/s : kalau picture aku burok, korunk advice la sikit macam mana nak jadi baaiikk punyeerr!

bersila ku mengupload

love trail dedicated to my bunga. (^*^)

unleash the attitude.

strong lives are motivated by dynamic purposes. one of it, is up there.

i did three things today. miss u, miss u and miss u.

creating the spastic look.

life isn't one damn thing after another. it's the damn same thing again and again.

my beautiful. acting like my panadol. =)
very quick release.

korunk tau tak apa yang dorunk fikir?

one day a whole damn song fell into place in my head.

pak guard ni tak macam pak guard kat UKM. at least.

how to describe. attitude.

classy and fabulous.

line up tiang-tiang.

air tenang tanpa pancuran.

riak-riak air bergerak.

kalau dunia nyata sebegini rupa.

bola-bola..telor-telor.

stood still and then i click.

i love the cloud. but i love my bunga the most.

i told u that the wall is a nice backdrop.



the man behind the scene with cik bunga

the best lighting for now is nature.

the first symptom of love in a young man is shyness, the first symptom in a woman. it's boldness.

she spark me all the way long.

splashy sun.

err..

reflection-reflection.

silhouette.

dear sun. kept my promise, that i will always love my bunga.
jiwang sikit kadang-kadang. tak salah kan.